We are currently in the midst of the largest global pandemic my lifetime has ever known. As I sit in quarantine with my family for almost the third week, I find myself wondering so many things. Will we be ok? Is the school year over for the year? If we can't leave the house for awhile, do we have enough supplies to make it? Why can't I find toilet paper anywhere?
In all honesty, I am having a hard time navigating this "new normal" and am overwhelmed with all of the information coming from the news outlets and social media. Between sifting through the sheer content and differentiating between what is truth and what is not, I have found myself in my pajamas most days feeling numb and not knowing what to do.
Unfortunately, I'm a huge over thinker. A big deal maker. A sensitive spirit with a tendency to feel all the emotions, often, at the same time. I consider it both a blessing and a curse, but more recently, it has become too much. Even for me. I am all about feelings and tenderness, and I still embrace that about myself. However, I also want there to be a purpose, a place to put all of the energy these feelings tend to stir up. Welcome to my proactive effort in journeying through this season.
In full transparency, I have no blue print for this. No final destination. It's quite possible that it will even get messy and confusing at times, because well...that's what life is and mine is no different. I just can't help but wonder if I might not be the only one out there struggling. Life was already hard before the pandemic. Now, it's just on steroids. So, I am making every effort to focus on what I can control, what needs my attention, and what I can influence...just for today.
